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It snowed!

I am in love with snow... I know i'm weird. But I'm just overwhelmed by the beauty of the snow. How it sits on the trees and it's just a wonderland of White.

So I guess you can guess that it did snow! complete snow day. I got to sleep in. Then I went to a job interview. It went really well. I spent about an hour and half there and It went well. I finally am not nervous much going into interviews as I once was. Maybe it's because I already have 2 jobs. I'm just looking for a better situation. Im not sure. But I do know that it might work out really well. Just depends on if I can handle to amount of hands on I need to do. The hours are good, I mean 37 hrs and I still get 3 days off. It's not bad. But there's a lot of training and It's all really nice women (NO MEN which I will gladly look forward to) and team work.

Anyways It took me an hour to get home afterwards because I had to stop and take pictures. I finally had my camera with me and the snow just called to me. To the point I ran out of room on my camera memory card. I dont even have the words to describe the way the snow calls to me. Im happy I finally was motivated to take so many pictures.

Ranting and ramblings...

SO i'm just rambling here ... I just got home from work and I'm beat.. I've been beating myself up all day because my boyfriend just wanted to do nothing yesterday. I misconstrued (i hope i spelt that right) what he had said, thinking he had this whole big thing planned and he was just not telling me.. but turns out not true. He really just wanted to spend the day together just lying around in bed. And I was so stupid. All I wanted was what every typical girl wants on Vday... Expensive Roses and a night out on the town and a well thought out nice gift... I let him down because I was disappointed. I set my expectations WAY to high... Ugh.. Why do I always do that? And I dont even want to be that person. I dont want to be materialistic and want to be showed with expensive gifts ( well not all the time). I guess i just wish he had put more thought and romance into the preparation of doing nothing all day in bed... Maybe i'm asking too much.

Anyways. So It's snowing ... After being in Art school for 5 years, I felt a bit burnt out. It takes a lot for me to get motivated. I'm not sure why but I have to feel really passionate and feel a pull to go out and shoot. and I haven't really felt that much lately so I haven't worked on anything really since May. Well it's snowed a few times and I have wished i could have gone and shot some pictures of the town in the snow, but I had to work. So I thought I'd get a chance to do some night shots of the snow falling. Well by the time I got home, the pace of the snow fall had diminished so theres no point in going outside to shoot. I'm hoping for a snow day and a good snow fall to go out tomorrow. I would love to get to go out. I hope i'm also internally motivated. I feel this need to get out there, produce, and get my work out there. I need and want to sell my work... There was definitely not enough time spent on how to get your work out there and how to get it sold. I feel completely lost in this area.

Well not sure what to get out of this rambling... Not sure many care... I feel like there aren't many people my age in my situation. I feel like most of my family is on a completely different path then me. To say I want to follow or have the same life as someone else or a certain person. It's just I have no one anywhere close to what my life is like and So there's no one to relate to... It's somewhat frustrating.. anyways i should check my email and get to bed .. in case that snow day doesn't come...

Pics

<-- My new Tv that Collin bought me for xmas... I love it!

My reorganized room

<-- The flowers Collin recently got me!

Update #2 Feb

So Collin still isn't here so I'm already and I'm back to post some more. I might ramble so just be patient.

I cut my thumb about 2 weeks ago while cleaning dishes. Figures it happens while i'm cleaning the knife rather than using it... Anyways it wasn't very deep but it was wide. It didn't seem to heal so I super-glued it. Yup thats right. I took a cue from my Bf and used regular Super glue. It has finally healed only I can feel where the the super glue is an since it's close to a bone, it still hurts when you apply pressure to it. Which happens regularly with scanning and bagging items and having kids grabbing your fingers and hands constantly. But oh well. It's not an open wound now so thats all that matters.

This coming sunday is either a holiday that you dread or one that you get excited for. Usually I dont seem to care. It's just another day. But this year I not only have a boyfriend but I have a boyfriend living in the same city as me. And Our whole story began with Valentines day. So this year I'm SUPER excited. I also think it's going to be extra special this year. I'm hoping. Collin, the guy i'm dating now, we started dating back in high school. There is a whole long and complicated story but i'm going to give you the readers digest PG version. So we were friends and he really liked me and we talked about everything all the time. I liked him because he liked me for me and wasn't all about everything every other teenage guy is about. Anyways, he got the permission from my mom to come over to the house (which had 5 million people at all hrs of the day over working on the kitchen) and ask me out. So I while I was at work he went to my house ( i didn't know any of this till afterward of course) and put up riddles all over the house. My friend came and got me and took me over to the house. The front door had a riddle and I had to figure out where to go next which was the piano and then another room and another until I got to the French doors leading to my room. Now the french doors not only led to my room but there were also 2 other doors; so like it was door number 1, door number 2, and door number 3. Well of course I go to my room first and i find candles lit , a stuffed animal, an Apple Pie in the shape of a Heart ( my favorite pie- he always paid attention to the small details in conversation), and a Question "Will you go out with me?" and then of course it said to find him. He was in the bathroom with the dog, LOL, and of course I said yes. We dated for about 8 months. After that we didn't talk for 5 years. He found me a year and 3 months ago on Myspace and we have dating ever since. I love him with all my heart. I know he loves me and is here for all the right reasons. He has the best intentions at heart. And really cares about me. Last year we were apart and didn't have the cash for anything more than a card. But this year I went a little overboard and unconventional. It came in the mail today and I'm so excited. Of course I can't say what it is because he might read this (unlikely but then again who knows better safe than sorry). I'll let you all know next week after the big day. I'm so EXCITED!!

hmm.. I'm thinking of what else is going on in my life.. Oh ok, so I love to get flowers. I dont get them often. I think i've gotten flowers maybe a total of 5 times in my entire life. I dont really care what kind. Roses are nice. I'm sorta into tulips right now. But i think a girl should get flowers every once in awhile. I thought I would have gotten some on my one year anniversary but no... So the other night I was PMSing towards Collin and being a big jerk. He finally came over and brought pizza and garlic knots and was being real sweet to me (which is usually not like him, he doesn't respond well to my mood swings) and he bought me flowers. I was so happy. I of course apologized and thanked him. They are beautiful. Lets just hope he gets me more for Vday! (pics will be included in the next post)...

Well my computer is saying "Im dying!!". I've had the thing for about 3 years and i think the battery life is finally going on it. poor thing... anyways love ya'll...

Feb Update #1

So Here it is 5pm already. I got out of work at 2 and today is my day off from my other job. I have been running around getting Valentines for the kids I teach and buying earings since I lost my last studded earrings I owned a few weeks ago. Somehow the tight backing became loose and was lost after taking a shower. So I now have 2 stud earrings for each hole that I have in my ear. I have 2 in each ear. And I also picked up some cute St. Patty's day earrings. Since my Boyfriend is very much IRISH and I have a little in me and is a big Holiday in our relationship.

Anyways. I think it's finally time to sit down and really update ya'll on my life. Even though no one seems to really read these things. To say the least you'd think with all these websites to connect and network with friends and loved ones you'd think we'd all be a little more aware, in-tune, and connected with everyone. However, I tend to think that it's all a facade; we aren't really connected at all. Yes you might read my blog or my facebook page but for the most part I dont feel like anyone really gives a hoot. But Anyways on with the point of it. My boyfriend, Collin ( yes TWO 'LL's please, people love to spell his name colin), had been officially living in my apt for about a month or so a month and a half ago. He moved in with his friend's because parents have said from the start no sleeping over... Well the lease is up at the end of the month and he has no where to go. Not sure where that leaves us but things will work out i'm sure. When i moved back in this summer i had arranged my room so that my futon could fit in my room along with my queen bed and a few other furniture pieces. To make it seem more roomy I had the bed pushed against the wall. Well when you have 2 adults trying to sleep in a queen with it pushed up against the wall, there tends to be some issues that arise. So I caved. I just got done spending the last hour rearranging my room so the bed is away from the wall. Let's say it was not so easy doing by myself. And I tend to have some OCD and had to clean and organize the other things along the way. And if that leads me to the next room, I hit things along that room that need to be organized or put away. Tuesdays are busy. Thursdays are busier. Anyways, I think Collin will be surprised and happy! Thats all the counts. Plus now I have full access to my night stand when he sleeps over! :) lol! I always feel better when things are organized anyways. Less clutter. As long as i dont see it anyways. (Pics of the clean rearranged room later coming.)

I love my Husband pillow. For those who dont know, this is a pill will arms that you put behind you when sitting in bed and it's supposed to remind you of your husband sitting behind you with his arms and such i guess. I dont know. Anyways, I can't stand being in bed without one. I feel comfortable and its hard to read or watch Tv in bed without one. Collin loves it too and steals it every time he sleeps over. He claims it helps him sleep and his back doesn't hurt afterward. He has a lot of back problems from a previous accident. And i always feel bad so i give in and let him have it. It apparently is a seasonal item because I am having the hardest time trying to find another one but I think I got one and I am going to cave and have to get one for him because I can't stand being without mine.

So I have way more to UPDATE on but Collin just texted me and said to be ready for whatever he has up his sleeve for date night tonight in one hour. and I gotta shower and shave.. UGH!! More to come! Love ya